when does everything stop feeling like a humiliation ritual

oh my godddddd i cant take it anymore anytime i leave my house im like constantly stared at idk why i cant take it anymore im so angry all the time now i dont know why. i hate living at home i need to get the fuck out of this place this town is sucking the life out of me i hate tourists and old people and people who just moved here. i was walking in the creek behind my house today to find a spot to smoke my bowl and read this great anthony bourdain book i picked up from the library and this old guy speeds up on this stupid atv and starts wailing on about how im on "his property" and he doesnt mind if i walk through or whatever but i got the feeling he just wanted me to fuck off so anyways. i kept walking but eventually i turned around because i could feel him watching me. there's a little rickety bridge like a few feet off his property so i went under there to do my buisness and i can hear his atv running so i look back. this dude is fucking staring me down im not even on your property and it was so loud and distracting i just went home. and even when i was walking back he kept trying to stop me to talk to me like oh my godddddd im fucking leaving. i got some pictures of the creek so if i ever learn html ill insert them here but i mean shit man. like i just wanted to relax and read like this man was patrolling his property on an atv that is honestly pathetic to me if you own that much land and its not fenced in people are gonna stumble upon it and when i was a kid it wasnt an issue but whatever. live and let die or something i dont know i didnt even get to finish my bowl so im probably gonna do that now and watch nirvanna the band. bye I Love You.