Is it getting better or worse?

I'm kinda confuse why would i be born like this? is it already written on my fate? idk what's my purpose to live rn, since i can't even find any purpose at all! Yeah, i like to live because i met a lot of amazing people here, but that doesn't mean they're my goals to live. I felt so empty. I'm an empty woman with no personality at all. I sometimes tired of living. My body is getting bigger and BIGGER. My family would criticize my body. I don't even know myself anymore. I have no hobby, and personality. I'm no woman and no human