Dear Diary

Dear Diary, i think about my death more often than i think about my own future

Ive been in a dump lately, and nothing seems to be going right anymore

I feel hopeless when i think about my future, and i get sad knowing i wanted to be so much more but i cant, because i cant take it anymore

It might not seem like its worth while, but i really do feel like my whole world is crashing down on me

I wish i could be happy for reals, without having the fear of dread everyday

I wish i could just stay in my room until my teenage years end and when i finally get to move out of this hellhole and become somebody ive always wanted to be

I wish i could be apart of bigger things, be friends with many other people, be on movies and series that people love, be famous

I pray everyday for god to take my life

If there really is a god