i always feel like i’m running out of time for quite literally every single thing i do. school work, cleaning my room, answering a question, sleeping, waking up, literally everything. yet i still push things back, procrastination is my worst biggest flaw and it pains me so badly that i can’t just quit it. i feel like i’m wasting so much time doing nothing, what will happen in the future when all the procrastinating finally matters and isn’t just a worry in my head? i’m sixteen years old, i’ve been sixteen since september when it’s currently may and i still don’t even have my drivers permit! i’ve never had my first job either. it’s my responsibility to get up and get my permit, go find job fill out job applications, and i just worry so so so deeply about how i’m running out of time, i’m not gonna be sixteen forever, what? i’m gonna be fucking 25 without my license? no!! what will happen when i’m out on my own and have no job to get paid? am i gonna just become a homeless slob because i didn’t wanna get up and do this shit when i was younger? i worry so bad about it that it makes me cry but yet i still procrastinate like it’s something so small when it really means so fucking much to me. i’m the one doing this too myself why can’t i just get up and stop pushing it away if it worrys me so badly? why can’t i just go do it? it’s not like i don’t have the time. i go to an alternative school for three hours a day from monday to thursday i have basically all day and a extra day added to my weekend so i obviously have the time to do all of it, yet i still don’t. i don’t know what’s wrong with me i’ve been this way ever since i can remember. i cry about stupid shit that i can fix but refuse to fix it. it’s gonna affect me one day just like i know it will and i STILL will not do anything about it. why is it so fucking difficult to just do it? it’s not like im lazy, not like i don’t care, so why can’t i do it??