I hate myself SO MUCH

So the girl I was talking to (a virtual friend) is looking for other Friends!!!!! Am i not enough!???!? I hate that but i mean, who am i to tell her what to do?? I know i'm boring and that i don't play forsaken because i don't know how to play but seeing her looking for friends hurts me because i no longer have Friends, i hate school because no one talks to me, My classes are boring and i'm tired of My life, she was the only one who was there, she didn't really talked to me or Even cared about our Friendship,, but she was what i was looking for a LONG TIME, i hate not having someone who i can tell how My day was at school or someone who cares about me, i really need Friends :////