diary 10/05/26

ok so its tmi time cos im bored. today i got up to mischief by rage baiting men on grindr. this is a favourite pass time of mine. here's to hoping they don't find where i live and shoot me dead. ok but that's not really what i wanted to write about...... anyway. i found the charger FINALLY for my camera. FINALLY. am planning to take photos again. i am a photographer irl btw for anyone reading this but i am also bipolar as fuck and in a month long depression i just like... stopped????? idk. but anyway i want to blog more often beyond just thirst trapping in laptop selfies (which i will not stop doing until i get a boyfriend which seems unlikely thus far). i found a birthday card from my ex like two years ago and i was like omfg why the fuck did i do any of that shit. being a teenager is weird as fuck and it's almost over (hurrah!). i'd share the photo of me on top of him at this halloween party on someone's bedroom floor making out. we were actually broken up at that point but oh well humans are fickle creatures. we got back together and that wasn't a good idea. anyway the last thing i texted him was "baibai i cant do this shit anymore" and he told me that like i was too mentally ill to be with anyway. which was actually true at that time. this was 2024 (?) btw. but ya not anymore i love growing up actually. SO NOW YOU KNOW ABOUT THAT! needless to say im doing better now anyway....... sooo like. dat dont matter. im tryna digital scrapbook but i realize my life isnt quite interesting and i live in the middle of nowhere so there isnt much to see. but then i also realize the uniqueness of my situation since most people live in dense cities and dont have access to the great wide nothing. it's one of the benefits of living up north i guess. next biggest town is 400 km away! yay!