I'm Returning to This Site

05/10 Hello, hello... So here I am. The same person who joined SpaceHey a year ago. Simply nicknamed `` 𝒗𝒐𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓. I really shouldn't ghost all my mutuals here, but my life's been so difficult lately. Yeah, no, that shouldn't be an excuse of why I ghost them. I should've tell them I'm going to be hiatus from SpaceHey for a while longer. 

I'm currently struggling with something. So, for summary... It is truly frustrating to take a lot of hours to fold one basket of clothes, then forcing myself to lock in simple tasks. I feel like I'm creative as hell but at the same time I over think everything. I always feel like so hard on and so critical of myself more than the world will ever know. My brain will tell me to do this, do that, yet my body won't budge. That executive dysfunction is no joke at all. Why the freak can I not get the hell up and complete the most simplest task?! When I try to explain this struggle to someone that doesn't understand much, they will legit just say I'm lazy. Plus, I have cancelled plans to see a psychologist several times. BUT THAT'S WHY I SHOULD KNOW WHAT AM I SUFFERING :( 

I just wish I could have a normal brain 🤷‍♂️