Why i wasnt active here for so long

To start, its gonna be mostly complaining or str8 up venting, the short answer is that a lot fucked up shit happened and i felt horrible mentaly for most of the time, and now i fell much better

If youre bored and want to read my yap sesh here it is:

I was in a perfect relationship (or so i thought) when my bf at the time started texting with one girl, she was the reason we started talking so much in the first place, we were both heart broken, me from a break up, and he from being rejected from that girl, when i asked him about texting her he said that its just in a friend way, and i belived him, bc he never gave me reasons to belive he would do smth behind my back. then came his trip with our friends, i couldnt go bc i was busy with school and all plus my mom wasnt very happy about me going so i stayed. He went on that trip with three of my friends and my bestfriends (at the time) sister. He stoped replying to me, even tho a lot sick shit happpened, and i realy needed him. Last day on their trip i found out he was cheeting on me the whole time he was there, with no other then my bsf's sister. I broke up with him ofc, now he is telling lies about me, he says i am "easy" and "fucked up" 

then said bsf started drinking more, he became a horrible friend and even worst boyfriend for my friend, he is also starting to b e horrible person in general, for example, his (now ex) girlfriend said that feminism is important and much needed, and he took it as a personal attack.. he's also starting to be racist and homophobic (he claimed to be bisexual) and also transfobic towards our frien AND HIS OWN COUSIN witch is honestly fucked up.

i also have my final exams in school this year, and i was studing the whole time, and im realy nervous about it.

(There were even more fucked up situations but i dont realy want to talk publicaly about how horrible girls in my town are toward me)