my beautiful boy genya

what the fuck.

i genuinely can't express how much i have been in pain ever since i've finished reading that fuckass fight with kokushibo. no like i'm not even joking rn i felt genya's death into my soul, what the fuck it was so unecessary why the fuh did HE had to die what the hell. AND MUICHIRO TOO?? WHAT THE FUCK. no genuinely i don't think it could get worse than this. like y'all might say oh yea it will trust but like not for me. like yea maybe i'll take back what i'm saying rn once i finish kny completely but damn i feel so lost rn it's not even funny. i felt sanemi's screams into my freaking heart istg i'm not trying to act like "omg yea me and sanemi r like... the same person yurrr" type shii, i'm deadass serious i felt HIS loss as if it was mine i swear it's ben 2 fuckin days that i'm physically and mentally drained and hurt. and yall be like "it's just a drawing u weirdass" NO IT'S NOT?? jst say you suck. uh tbh idc if anybody says im weird i feel so sad rn i genuinely cried multiple times and shii like it get can't worse than this. no omg fuck i was so freaking attached to him i can't even explain i feel like i just lost ma brother?? i could talk abt this forver omg what the fuh. i don't know any other things so pls don't spoiler me BUT the only thing i know is that sanemi survives and like fuh yeah at least him... but then i realized that his punishment was being still alive, watching his only brother that survived till that day die in his arms and with him some of his companions, also he'll just continue living thinking it was his fault genya and others died and like uhhhh bro wtf lemme get some sleep pls