DAILY prob not BLOG #7 //

As im writing this its 13:15 pm

and i have some updates , my mother has packed her bags and ran off to my grandmas place

u might be wondering what i did that was so horrible that she had to leave, well

as i said in blog #6 , i pushed her back after she pushed me, nothing crazy right? wrong

after she messaged me saying sorry well i gave her a full poem about how i felt when i was around her

she didnt take it so well since i said i would call cps on her ( i obviously would never) for a quick backstory :

i didnt go to school for a long time and they accused my parents for keeping me home

wich was not the case since the school was the problem

after that my mom got scared of cps since they could walk freeley in our house.

in the message i said all the things i felt in strong words so she could feel the same that i did.

basically i used fire against fire but my fire had more blast.

and now shes " so sad that i hurt her feelings" ..mom do u cut yourself to the point u bl33d?

i dont think so, she got so sad that i fuck!ng pushed her, even tho SHE grabbed MY arm and now

i have bruises THANKS MOM U REALLY DID HELP THERE.

ugh

 its sucks to have feelings for someone who hurts u but u get so brainwashed that u feel sorry for them

worst part is she doesn't hurt my physically , she just bullies me, more then she should

do i feel sorry for her? nah not really

do i miss her? a little she's the loud one so its different when she isnt here.

do i want her back? i dont know, im scared of being mocked and bullied again.

thats about it but the day isn't over yet

 so i will update if something happens

bye