Feelingish

Sometimes I just wanna break my nose against something hard and rip my skin from my cheeks that I break a nail or two. I know its just intrusive thoughts and I wouldn't do anything of the sort but like damn I need adrenaline. That's the exact reason i go to local shows and mosh and have the shit beat outta me, and when I'm able to visit my girlfriend, she always has my senses turned to the max. But ill run outta money and I cant go to shows, and I eventually have to drive home from my girlfriends. I don't wanna be a adrenaline junkie that risks his life but there isn't much you can do to get that high.