Am I loser ?

Never in my whole life had I ever thought that I will call myself a loser. 'Oh, but why would you call yourself a loser??'. I don't know why I feel like this but I'm seventeen and the only thing I did in my whole fucking life was to study, but guess what, I'm an average student who is not failing but also not aceing my grades. Backbenchers call me a genius and the frontbenchers makes me feel dumb. This makes a pathetic loser who is stuck in neither getting good nor bad. A loser who is dependent on parents money. It's not like want to be stuck in this pathetic place, I want to do something !! But it is as if the world is against me getting better. I finished school in the last week of April, I'll be going to college soon but the thing is idk which one because I'm a fucking loser no one wants. I was never like this before. Back in middle school I was a star kid, good at many things. My parents had to move to another place and I ended up switching schools. My grades dropped to average.  Now people say "It's just grades, you don't have to worry-" BULLSHIT, atlest to me, cuz I'm a fucking Asian and my dream is that I won't be a burden to my parents, but that is exactly what I am right now, a fucking burden. So I'm not just a 17 year old but I'm a seventeen year old loser. A lonely pathetic loser. My teachers told me that I have the potential in me and everybody thinks it is a good thing. It is not. That shit must be the most humiliating thing I've ever heard. Ik I have the potential in me, and do use it-yes but does it help-no. This showed that me giving all is just someone else's bare minimum. 

Oh I hate myself