Night-time - [Poetry by Lizzie (public)]

Night-time - Elizabeth.A

Another all nighter just to stay a fighter,another night while in fight or flight, another night just me,the moon's light and Midnight where's most bright.

The gentle hum of passing cars and purrs of my cat are the only comfort I find.

At night, no song gives me the same high.

I tried getting high on spotify but that led to a dulling time.

00:39 Im trying to escape time.. evey second ..every minute.. everytime I remain the same, no change ,no life , less time.

I need help is what they all say while im stuck in my brain trying to be okay.

It's dumb I know venting to a phone or to those who want to know why I am so low but what is one to do when they have nobody to turn to? 

I lost the high in my religion I need to get back on track aswell, start reading my bible and being the one at use and stop dealing with this mental abuse.

Studying ..20 days left. I thought I was on time but turns out I fucked up my finish line another time. 

I don't know how to change I need my time and I need help breaking this cage of rage thats slowly building inside of me because of the internalised hate I have for all the defects that are effectively destroying, Me time after time.

Maybe another time I will be able to get to my prime and not destroy my finish line although I don't have much time to stay in line.

I haven't showered in a while. My hair hasn't been washed in weeks, my ankle hurts it hasn't fully healed. Im failing at life.

 Maybe this could be all fine after I get out this grime and work for the lost time. The right way, this time around.

I can't shut my eyes ,everything inside of me is twirling like a butterfly not fluttering but twirling till it's death.

Im alright ,yeah no need to check if im on my flight to jump off the mental skyline.

Maybe another time.

(F.Y.I IM FINE).