depressed

Well yesterday My parents got a phone call and we were told my grandfather passed away my mom went over to check and see if maybe my aunt wasnt just thinking that and him maybe just be passed out and she hadnt said anything to him but no that wasnt the case he had actually passed away i got the call from my mom and brother saying he was gone and all i could do is scream that it couldnt be true I miss him so much that i cant even push myself to eat or anything right now i feel horrible this depression is awful the more that this hits me the worse it gets I didnt even get to say good bye or tell him i loved him before this happend it was so sudden and it hurts i have an actual pain in my cheast right now that may never go away I really want him to know i love him and I want him to know that he meant the entire world to me and still does it will never change. I MISS U GRANDPA .