random blog entry thingy cuz i am new 2 spacehey lalalal

since i have no clue what to really do here except try out the blogging feature, i should talk a small bit about my life

i recently lost my closest friend, cut him off myself because he was being a bad friend. he was the type of guy to show you that he wants to help, just to flip everything and make it all about him. he did it many times, and i knew each time, but i was stupid enough to engage anyways. it's hard to explain a bad person in a neutral light, because this really has been bothering me. especially considering we were very close friends for 4 years. may not seem like much time, but when you're 16, that's a quarter of your entire life

in my life i've met alot of people, good and bad. i seriously hate bad people. sounds obvious, but it really hits you when they think they're better than you. they think they're better than you when you already know that there's people out there who are leagues better than you, but you've already told yourself that you are the only one responsible for deciding who those people are, and no other person can decide who is better than you except for yourself. and when you find someone who thinks they are better than you, you suddenly hate them. their arrogance is what puts them at the bottom of your mental social rankings

it's not just the guy i had recently cut off. many people that i have met over and over have been so overbearing and narcissistic to me that it's hard to trust anyone. eventually, in your own mind, the good people mesh in with the bad people and suddenly you try to predict the next move of those good people who only want what's best for you, believing that they have some twisted alternate motive when interacting with you

oh but let me tell you it is SO fun to call out bad people on the things they're doing. there's something so empowering about ruining someones social circles by ONLY telling the absolute unfiltered truth

kinda lost my train thought but i think this is enough for a night. i don't know if blogs can be privated or deleted or whatnot, but i might do that by the time i wake up. i have a tendency to write alot of things late at night, then wake up to find it cringe and get rid of it