feeling empty?? jus me?? oh okay🙄

I feel a doom coming idk it feels like the bald guy in no I'm Not a Human is trying to warn me or something like I already lost my closest friends and I don't know what else could happen but it feels like my life is a little to chill. A dark cloud of nothing burger is gonna wash over me if I dont figure out whats going on also back to the friends part, when you lose people who you genuinly love it gives your body a whole knew reaction to things like now I'm paranoid for the littlest things it got so bad i relapsd (not on anything bad just 🍃) but still it sucks when i feel like someone is mad at me i immediatly start trying to make them feel better or make them laugh, although i miss my friends (only 2 of them cause the other one genuinly made my life hell) if its for the best for my future and theirs then maybe i should move on but once again this cloud of doom is washing over me so i need to chillax a bit. Dont expect replies from anyone but these are kinda my therapy sessions now