Emotional Drama

Ok so its been a while since i wrote here but lately I've been talking to the guy more, i think i called him Lucas? Well he has shown me more love and affection lile holding hands and tiny gifts and even staring at my face too much. I felt butterflies before and even loved the attention but now.. i feel like im forcing myself deal with it and not back away because i immediately feel uncomfortable around him and I been starting to hate every physical contact with not just him but everyone. I started to like someone else and i realized I'm only in love with the people i known would never love me back, is it a bad think that i lose interest whenever someone likes me back? Anyways lmk if u want more posts!