Friendships are hard and male vtubers

I think i have come to terms with the fact that i might not get any friends any time soon. I tried making friends online but im not as active on discord and got kicked out of the group lol. In other news i went outside and watched a movie. The theater was empty because it was a weekday so it was great for me it felt nice to be outside, I might do it again soon.  

Talking about discord I met a guy in there he was okay but he jumped on the “Im in love with you” stuff so fast i said no and now he blocked me (lmao). Im just not built for romance I don't put any effort on myself and the pressure of being pretty in an online relationship is scary because if you are not pretty whats happens then? Thats why i subbed to a male vtuber they give me compliments and say nice things and i don’t have to worry about them seeing me and I don’t  have to put any effort on a relationship that doesn’t exist. I wish something like an online host club existed I JUST WANT MEN TO GIVE ME SOME  ENTERTAINMENT AND THEN LEAVE ME ALONE THATS ALL