i dont miss the rage

I'm so tired.

another take on the nice thing, i don't think i am bothered that easy it's just that everything fucking happends to me, i really am not trying to be mean tho, it's just impossible for me ok? i really want to be pocket full of sunshine and chill but i care, and i can't help that i care, i wish i could just erase the memories that i have so i just stop hating, bc i hate for a reason, if i didnt remember those reasons  i would be chill aff, i act like it tho, i could hate your guts and you would never know, i love how people always tell me that they can tell when i hate someone, like, why would i hide it? if i wanted to you would never fucking know, i actually despise people rn, i don't want to sound like "i'm such a unpredictable manipulator😈" no i would never think that about myself i think that everyone can do that i just like to say it bc it feels nice? why im feeling so attacked its my own blog i can say whatever i want(? i feel cringe af.

i'm being dead serious, can somebody gimme weed or something, like actually dead serious i need to chill tf up. i'm cringing so bad saying this and i'm telling you i'm cringing so you can't say that i'm cringe bc i am self aware and i already know i am so fuck you, you are mean and childish.

i'm just going to stop right here bc it's 3:00 am, im hungry af and i'm probs going to have a bad sleep. 

gn whores, fuck you all

XOXO💋

-Pau