“SWEETHONEYLOVE” what the fuck

Alright this is gonna be a doozy How do i even start this one? 

if you dont understand what im talking about or who “chris” even is then read my last blog to understand!1! 

I know it’s weird how im sting hungup on him even when my last blog wasnt even 2 weeks ago! but whatever 

So A little context for chris, when i first met him i thought he would be into the same music i am! (if your curious its ALL over my blog) He looks like he was so it was fair to assume but i was WRONG!. Hes a fanatic for breakcore like total headoverheels like, he listens to “femtanyl” and others…LOLZ i forgot who else makes breakcors ʅ（◞‿◟）ʃ anywho! he was so inlove with it that he made his own music, It was…okay? i was his biggest of course because at the time i thought he was it and the one i was gonna love forever… RECKRD SCRATCH!!! he wasnt. It feels so bad talking about chris while my boyfriends falling asleep on my chest but i have to let this all out now or i never will. 

Chris makes a lot breakcore songs to give you an idea of what they sound like imagine a videogame boss battle… but like… retro? LOL! does that even make sense?… well wtfeva. This morning in my first period chemistry class the topic landed on chris by me bringing him up over and over again and i mentioned that he made a song about me back when we were talking because i assumed by the title HE DID! (btw his songs dont have lyrics just beats so i use what i can gather!1!1! (￣д￣;). Anywho on my look back i noticed that infact..There wasnt just the song that had my cd player, Cd mix i burned for him and cigarettes in the background, BUT THERE WAS MULTIPLE. THERE WAS SOMETHING NEW. AN ALBUM! 

of course being curious i looked at that album and what i noticed was something that made me really happy. Multiple songs dedicated to me. Wow. i feel so egotistical even saying that it made me happy but it did, like, A LOT!1!1! honestly its a dream of mine to even have a single for me let alone a album. Or so i thought. From first glance i thought that album or atleast 1-2 songs were about me i briefly scrolled through it as the bell had betrayed me for PE but in my next class my 3rd period, i KNEW it was about me because of ONE song title. “Million Fold” now you may be asking yourself “Zombie! what does that even mean lolz XD” Qell let me explain to you internet explorer! 

It comes from when me and him stopped talking and i admitted everything to him. He told me that he loved me a million fold, and that hes sorry he never told me. honestly i thought only a couple songs were about me and the rest about other things that happened to me. Heres what i think is about me and what isnt 

ABOUT ME: 

1. A Million Fold 
2. Acceptance 
3. Denial

didnt realize how much that read like a dementia patient!1

The rest im sure were about other things. But while i was looking at his accounts i noticed something else a new song titled “Sweet Honey Love”. Wow wow wow honey? HONEY? HE CALLED ME HONEY HE SET THAT AS MY NICKNAME WHAT THE FUCK?? 

i look at the description “For my honey *girlfriends name* 

on july 15th last year i asked him to pick me a nickname, he asked me “Is honey ok or is that too weird?” or something along those lines and i said yes. and how he calls her honey? what the fuck out of all nicknames in the world ?? that one! and i cant even be mad about it because i have a loving boyfriend and he doesnt owe anything to me honestly genuinely he doesnt even have to think about me anymore but god. Out of all things..

maybe next time ill talk about how i spoke to him by accident. Whoops. #embarassing (T . T)

bye bye xoxo zombz

p.s. pick a better nickname #rememberallthethingsthatyouandididfirst?