8 months & im terrified. advice?

hi. so.

i’ve known this guy online for 8 months now. we’re the same age, only a 2-hour time difference, and he is actually AMAZING. like, the coolest person ever. but i am losing my mind because i think i’m falling for him and i am SO SCARED. i have always said i REFUSE to online date. it freaks me out. we don’t even have each other's numbers yet and i’ve never even seen his face!! AUGHS ITS TERRIBLE!!!! 

we talk on this public platform where anyone can jump into the thread, and yet we’re there saying "i love you," "good morning," and "good night" every single day. and back to the threads, i sometimes peek into his conversations and i haven’t seen him like. say “ily” to another person.... so i think he likes me too? idk. i might be going insane. or maybe im not because i found this post he made and like idk copy and paste it here

“I wish

I wish I could them what they mean to me

I don’t want to make it weird, though

But I wish I could tell them

Let them know

let them all know”

the last part throws me off cuz. ok what if hes already in a relationship. WHAT IF AND HE SAYS IM HIS BEST FRIEND BUT PROBABLY ONLY ONLINE. WHAT IF HE LIKES SOMEONE AND HASNT TOLD MEEAAAAA

he asked if i wanted his number once he gets a phone (we both do not have phones.) and i said YES, obviously, duh. but at the same time im. yk scared:

• what if what i'm feeling isn't actually love?

• what if i make things weird and he blocks me?

• what if we start something and i'm too scared to leave because i don't want to hurt him?

• i even told him i’d visit him when i’m older and he said he’d show me all these cool spots...UHDVUHDUHFDFEDJDAAHHA!!

i really, really, reallyreallyreallyreallyreally didn’t want to fall in love. it feels impossible for this to work out when he lives so far away, but i think i really do love him.

am i overthinking this?? has anyone else felt this way about someone they haven't even met yet? i think people have. 

i’m so scared i’m gonna mess this up.

this is so buns. all help is appreciated and noted

misty out

edit: hi everyone! small update :D

we’ve swapped emails and showed each other our faces and hes. so beautiful. i like him

wow we officially know what we look like! so cool!!! 

idk what was to share, lol. hes amazing. hes awsome :)) i really like him, i think.