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In recent days, I have realized that I consistently struggle with what my true self actually is. I have moments where I feel true, but then I lose that feeling. The goal is to be true, to be true is to be happy, to be true is to be free. Freedom and happiness is the goal. But what does it mean to be true? Can one ever fully be true? Perhaps the act of being true is not pursuing the goal at all...
I feel like I want to be so many things, I want to live every life there is to experience. The quest for infinite knowledge. One day I am a man who is set in my ways, the next I am a person who exists in the shadows, and then the next day I am a revolutionary leader of the future.
I think I need to do some serious introspection, do some spiritual readings...
I am very much open to advice and opinions.
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RPG_now
same, i want to be myself but i dont even know what that means for me
jakalope_
im not psychologist but im pretty sure that's normal and i think it's influenced by our surroundings. like maybe in one moment we find ourselves in a difficult scenario where we can't seem to understand anything so we value our abilites less, sometimes we find ourselves wanting to stay alone a bit more than others and so we view us as more introverted, but sometimes when we're in a certain group we feel more like guiding those who seem to not understand a certain concept or thing and so we suddendly are proud of ourselves for being helpful and leader-like. idk, sometimes the things we do appear to be completely unexplainable. i sometimes sit down and think on a past thing i did or said and ask myself ''why would i ever do/say that? that doesn't seem like me'', but then again we did, so it is you, it is how you act and it is how you acted, and there must always be a reason and an explanation behind it.
idk it's a bit confusing, but what i do know is that when we're not being our true self, our true self indentifies that really well and you feel weird and ''out of your body'' all of a sudden, and i think that's the sensation you're feeling rn.
im no psychologist*
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im not great at explaining things that are in my mind sorry, hope you grasped the concept tho hagahah
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