Life update

End of the semester is coming woohoo! just have to last till may. this is going to be more of a personal rant and diary entry so im gonna gloss over the proper grammar and punctuation i would normally use when i write my blogs. 

Lately I've been reflecting on my anger, specifically im not as angry as a person as i used to be. during high school it always felt like i was upset or holding grudges with past relationships. I find myself not holding onto grudges as much as I used to and moving on from past events that made me upset in some kind of way. I still remember those events and I still am deciding on forgiveness between myself and other parties but overall I dont look back anymore in anger. its more of like "well that happened, things couldve gone better but what can i do about it now" its a bit of a casual mindset to have but it help me calm down. I think the reason anger was my strongest emotion is because change is a hard thing for me to accept. 

I dont like things to change, I like keeping things the way I found them. but change is also normal and I have accepted it now, things are bound to change. You cant keep things forever, let alone keep them the same forever. Ill miss people but I cant bring them back, Ill miss places but theyre different now, I miss hobbies but my interests are different. I can miss things as much as I want but it doesnt do me much good so I have to let go and thats okay! Goodbye old friends! Goodbye old hobbies! Goodbye old places! Goodbye! Goodbye! 

anyways thats my rant about emotions, recently i added a minor in photography to my major so thats been a lot of fun and i think im improving my photography as well. Im having a lot of fun! Oh ive also been watching soul eater, its pretty good so far I enjoy the storytelling and animation. The fan service can be a bit unbearing tho, its rlly bad in the first 5 episodes lol. Im also into Half-life now haha, im almost finished with the first game! and then ill start portal!