true connections

It seems like humans haven't changed much. No matter how much experience I think I have and all the wisdom I could need, the universe proceeds to prove me wrong yet again. I've accepted the fact that I will never know everything; life is too big to know everything. You can never truly learn humans, people, anyone. I used to see connection as something completely emotionally driven, something that was necessary in order for my character development. Now I see any kind of connection as "trial and error". There's many types of connections in this world, far too many to label. I think the most common ones are either the deep ones and not so deep, and then you get the ones that are sort of in the middle, if you don't know where to place your connection on those scales is it even one in the first place? 

I've been thinking about this a lot recently and especially talking to my friends about it - how is it possible to get hurt by someone you had such a great connection with? how can the person that wanted me first lose the connection with me? 

I think the answer is simple really.. Connections are not indefinite, which makes it the hardest aspect of it all. You could lose a connection with someone you thought was your soulmate in the span of 3 months, yet, not lose the connection with someone you've known your whole life even though you might have disappeared from each other for a while. A lot of people assume that connections don't need understanding, an active attempt at seeing someone for who they really are. You cannot reach the center of a jawbreaker without eating it entirely. The same goes for connections. You cannot truly have a connection with someone without trying to understand them. Some connections don't just happen immediately but instead slowly and gradually, building up to something unexpected.

Sometimes it isn't this sharp and electric feeling of something mimicking love at first sight but a more subtle and quiet connection that no words can really be used to describe it. Something intangible. What does a connection mean to you?  Does it have to be casual, fleeting? Or are you the kind of person who believes in soul crushing devotion? - not everyone is designed for it. With time people change, some connections never do. I'll always recognize deep connections when I feel them, and as time goes on I see them for what they really are and the assurance of knowing that there really is a person out there, there are people out there who are able to understand my soul makes me not lose hope. I'll never be scared of someone not understanding the depth of who I am, I can't force that connection.

"I guess, when you're young, you just believe there'll be many people with whom you'll connect with... And later in life, you realize it only happens a few times."