Should I give up? (I need advice)

[This is the "second" part of my other blog https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2152290, tho you can read this without context n you'll prob understand it too!]

I gave up. I gave up on everything. I'm not gonna try to help you anymore. Do whatever you want at this point, I shouldn't care. Don't wanna hang out? Its fine. Don't wanna text me (Unless it's at 1am bcs you've been playing w your friends all day and they were rude to you so now you're upset)? It's fine (What am I saying? he doesn't even text me). You wanna hurt yourself? It's fine. You don't wanna eat? It's fine. 

I'm so tired of everything. I wanna d★e. I gave up on everything, I just have him and now I gotta act as if him feeling like shit didn't matter to me. He doesn't talk to me either, if I don't start the convo we stay in silence all day. He only talks to me when I'm sad and he's happy. He says "r u alr?" once and that's it. Silence again. I hate that.

Today I asked him if he liked the way our relationship was going and he said that he did. I don't know how to feel.

Everytime he's sad I feel it as my own pain. Even when he's just a bit sad, it hurts like hell. When he gets sad at school and goes to a different class than mine he always gets so happy, something I can't make him feel. I just gave up at this point. I don't know what to do.

I need to hear someone's opinion, thank you for reading.

       -Take care, Solry.