i'm in love.

🧿 There is a boy called Joe, he's someone i never thought i would be close to. 

When i first met Joe i thought we were different and can't be friends i may have even judged him, but the more i saw him, talked to him i felt that he was funny and nice i really liked being around Joe but i ignored it, but i'm afraid i couldn't keep avoiding him forever. I started reading him, his choices, his words, his movement, things that made him think, laugh or angry. I realised whenever i spent time with him he made me feel seen and heard i liked Joe. He was the only one by my side when my friends weren't, he made me laugh when others couldn't. When i hung out with him a few hours felt like minutes. I knew that i loved him, did i ever think of telling him how he made me feel? No i could never.

But he did, that night he told me everything and i poured myself onto him as if i had been dying to (i was), and suddenly i wasn't the same girl, i wasn't cold i wasn't empty anymore. i thought i would never carry anyone in my heart nor mind, but i was wrong. I'm in love now and i fell hard. I don't know how long this may last but i'm happy with Joe. I wish to keep him with me forever. Funny thing is his name isn't even Joe. Lol, his love makes me feel like a little girl who's got all that she needed and wanted. I feel like i'm 13 again. I feel like he is my soulmate.  He's my rockstar boyfriend. 

If Joe doesn't stay or doesn't love me, things will happen. But for now im glad i spoke to yall about the love of my life just hope ur all doing well and ur happy. 


xoxo. 

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