ᶫᵒᵛᵉ 一 ʚĭɞ ༉‧₊˚✧ entry #26: GUYS I HAVE SO MUCH GAME OH MY GOD

♪₊˚.🎧︵‿ ⩩ ᝢ dearest digi!diary 🎀

GUYS OMG so my friend M invited me to their cafe and i wasnt able to come last time cuz i couldnt shower. and then after that i couldnt come again cuz i had to go hang out w my other group friend. THEN before i hung out w this other group friend, i asked M if he could ask my crush (19 year old btw; feels wrong mentioning a crush as 19yr old lmfao) to come over in a guise of last hang out before our grad—but that he also tells my crush i will be there so he would agree. HE DID AGREE BCS MY FRIEND SET US UP PERFECTLY. ( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ

during graduation practice, when the other class took their pictures, i wanted to come to him so we could talk tgt but i saw that he was talking to someone else so i didnt really approach him. (Ｔ▽Ｔ)BUT AFTER A WHILE, HIS BEST FRIEND APPROACHED ME AND ASKED IF HE, MY CRUSH COULD TAKE A PICTURE W ME???? I SAID YES. MIND U I AM VERY CAMERA CONSCIOUS BUT ID DO IT FOR HIM ANYWAY. (´∀｀)♡after that me and him hung out at the back and sat tgt and talked about our plans for later. i told him that i wanted him to come later at the group hang out and admitted i was the one who suggested he do.( ⌒.−)＝★

fast forward! we were awkward at first. we were ordering food and he was playing w our other friends. M asked what flavor he wanted and he was confused bcs he was focusing on the game. another friend asked him again of "what do you want?" and he sat there, confuse, and deadass said: "whoever else? [my name]" ヾ(´▽｀;)ゝAND OUR FRIENDS LOST IT. they were convincing us to sit next to each other but i wasnt budging. he went out for a while and played basketball so he came back sweaty 💔💔 he dried up and then i decided eventually i wanna sit next to him and we doom scrolled on my tablet. THEN WE PLAYED FAKIN' IT and i kinda lost my energy bcs i dont wanna be an imposter in that game. ƪ(‾.‾“)┐

then he also stopped playing AND HE LAID HIS HEAD ON MY SHOULDER???? BRO OMG??? and he said: "yeah, im just gonna recharge guys." ???? (⊃д⊂)HELLO. i adjusted my shoulder and asked if he was ok bcs i was kinda being stiff BECAUSE THIS IS THE FIRST TIME SOMEONE LAID THEIR SHOULDER ON ME AND IT WAS MY FUCKING CRUSH. HE ASKED IF MY SHOULDERS WERE GETTING TIRED AND OF COURSE NOT? ●﹏●anyway i lied my head on his and we js watched shit and did that clingy ahh thing for at least 2 hours bro. ive never done this shit, this dude is my first everything in all of this romance thing bcs last time i had was almost 2 years ago. AND IT WAS LONG DISTANCE. anyway we js did that and we needed to go home. i tried to offer if i could pay for his transportation bcs it turns out he didnt bring anything and his money is in an online wallet. (-｡-; i was more than willing to pay for it bcs this man bought me a blue lock official merch when he went to japan last time. (♥ó㉨ò)ﾉ♡

when we went to the transpo, (train style seat) i laid my head on his shoulder i was rly getting tireddd and i asked if he could check if im at my stop. he said yes he will do js that but i still ended up watching if im near my stop bcs i was getting anxious id miss it. ミ●﹏☉ミ he texted me that night and said he was sorry for being clingy but that he always wanted to be clingy w me—and that he started to show his actual true self to me bcs i can still back away if i dont like the real, authentic him. (☆^ー^☆) i told him the same thing and i said i was doing that way ever since from the very beginning even though its awkward. he asked if my shoulders were okay again and i told him it was fine and that it felt new bcs ive never had someone do that thing—so this guy is my first in everything in some things bro???? （＞ｙ＜）

anyway, thats it!!! i went pretty long lmfao. hes not awake yet—im usually the early bird between the two of us thats why i had the chance to write this. thanks for reading it this long!! ( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ with so much love xx ⌂ ੭ ░