➵ blog 003: new campuses, same brain, different noise

it’s been 7 months.

i didn’t mean to disappear that long, but i guess that’s kind of my thing. i blink and time folds in on itself and suddenly everything is different and i’m supposed to just keep up.

i graduated school last year, which still doesn’t feel real. like, i keep expecting to wake up and have homework due or a test i forgot about. but instead it’s just over.

now i’m in GUC, studying product design.
which sounds cooler when i say it out loud than when i’m actually sitting in class at 8am trying to understand what’s going on.

it’s weird. the buildings are bigger. the people feel more put together. everyone seems to know who they are and what they’re doing here.

and then there’s me, trying to figure out how to exist in a space where no one knows me.

product design is interesting though. like actually interesting. we get to think about how things look and feel and function and why people interact with them the way they do. it’s kind of like overthinking, but academically approved. and i actually really like it!!!

it reminds me of big hero 6, my favorite movie. the labs, the projects, the idea that you can just build something that didn’t exist before and make it real.

i think that’s the first time in a while something academic didn’t feel completely draining. it feels close to something i’ve always liked without realizing it. It's still overwhelming. I mean, everything is new to me. the system, the expectations, even ME. the new version of me that i haven’t fully built yet.. and i keep thinking if i actually changed or if my surroundings are what changed.

also, i got hacked on discord AGAIN. it sucked. years of messages, servers, random memories are just gone!!

i got to get my account back but i dont have everything i lost yet.

it’s strange how losing something digital can still feel like losing a part of your timeline.

Anyway idk what else to say, like how do i conclude this..?

i'm just somewhere in between, trying to design things while also trying to design myself into something that makes sense.

~ sn0wbl00d
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