Life Update | 4/20/2026

Hello!! It's been a while, I don't usually do updates often on here because its been a while. But apparently I've been on spacehey for 4 years! so that's really good. I'll catch y'all up with all the hot topics of what's being going on within my life that's good AND bad, so I hope you're prepared for that.

Let's Get Started!

*Just for reference, I'm 18 years old now and I'm turning 19 on 6/1/2026.*

Alright, so we're gonna start back to November of 2024, I had a seizure from my body being extremely stressed from walking pneumonia. It was dare I say one of the most terrifying times of my life. I was 17 at the time; For the first time ever I was diagnosed with epilepsy, and everything kind of went downhill at the time. I was terrified and overly analyzed my body a lot, they first put me on lamotrigine, it fucked up my mood really bad. I felt like a zombie, I wasn't happy or sad at the time. That was until I got my prescription changed to  Briviact. That worked really well for me, and still does now. Having epilepsy during this time was probably one of the worst times for me, since I was at a point to where I was transferring into adulthood. 

But, it was the first time I got to meet my actual boyfriend. We started talking to each other for a while after he finally gave me a chance. He's been my best friend ever since, and we talk to each other about everything. While me and him were talking, my best friend at the time was two girls named Amaya and Rhian. Me and Rhian feel out during winter break because I got tired of the emotional abuse she was putting me through. 

She decided that she wanted to cuss me out for not understanding something she said through text. I specifically remember that morning because I was already not in the mood for her bullshit, and we just had a talk about her not knowing how to communicate clearly. But that day I was completely fed up, so I cussed her out. I told her that if she didn't apologize then we'd never be friends ever again. Rhian at the time didn't really say a word, it was awful. January of 2025 came together and I was alone all over again. My boyfriend was my friend for a bit until I started to hang out with a couple of his friends, then we became a part of the friend group. I spent a lot of time with them, and they were great people to be around honestly.

But while this was happening, my cosmetology teacher (Ms. Humphrey) was trying to get me back friends with Amaya. It was our senior year, and she had known us as close friends before all of this. Then there's been a time to where Amaya tried to get me to talk to her outside of the homeroom. Because her and my boyfriend, along with his friends went inside of the same homeroom. I forgot what the conversation was about, but I really wasn't fucking with it. She tried to say something about me talking about her and then switched the conversation because her name was never in my mouth. 

In the end of the day though, we ending up being friends again. (I regret this a lot now.)

Anyway, her mom dies. 

Yes, her mom died. I know I sound so shitty right now, but promise me its a good reason as to why I hate her now. I went to the funeral, and was there for her during all of it. I try my best, along with Rhian to make sure she's emotionally support because of the kind of situation she was in. Her mom was a really nice woman, I would've traded her for my mom any other day. I cried for a bit, just only when she wasn't around of course. My friend needed me at the time, why would I cry to her about HER mom? 

There was a lot of things going on. Her father kept her mama ashes and never gave them back, because legally that was her mama husband and he was being petty. Turns out her father isn't even her father; some other man is and nobody knows who he is. That's how she ended up living in her grandparents house for a while, while also being separated from her brothers. 

Time skip, its prom time now. Me and Rhian try to get her to enjoy senior week or at least come to prom with us. She doesn't come, so now it's just me, my boyfriend and Rhian. We try our best to have a good time but we miss our best friend at the time. So Rhian tries to call her or text her to send a voice message saying that we miss her, and wished she was there. But a couple of minutes after, Amaya sends a really mean message to Rhian that ruins her mood so much, to the point to where she starts crying. So me and my boyfriend spend the night trying to make her feel better, and we go to Applebee's. I try to explain to Rhian the best that I can that Amaya was never really a good friend, and that she doesn't have to deal with that. But Rhian says that with everything she's going through, she's not going to stop being her friend. I understood that during the time but it was such a hard time for Amaya, so I stayed being friends with both of them as well. 

Rookie mistake #2. 

Timeskip and we're getting ready to graduate! Now here goes the situation with my mom. My mom is a well known narcissist and would do anything to ruin a special day for me. With that, being said, let's get into this story. 

What happened was basically it's graduation day (5/22/2025), and I'm trying to figure out what me and my family plans on doing. Most of my family says their tired, and didn't want to do anything because they got out of work. So I understood that, and I texted my boyfriend and asked what they were doing. He said that his family was going to a graduation dinner, and said I was invited. So, naturally I asked if I could go since everyone was tired to go somewhere. The dinner was an hour away and no one wanted to drive there, but I at least wanted to go somewhere for my graduation. So while me and my family were trying to figure that out, my mom tells us that she's too tired and she plans on leaving with my two younger siblings. So we waved her goodbye. In the end, the rest of the family decides that we want to go to Applebee's. So, we drive there since it's the closest by, and while we're waiting on a table my mom calls and decides that she wants to come. 

Naturally I'd be irritated because we just figured out what we're gonna do and now we're waiting on you when you JUST said you didn't want to come?? 

Anyway, she makes it there. We're still waiting on a table and by then I'm over it and just on my phone. 

This woman, comes in and calls me disrespectful and out of my name. She tells me that people are here to celebrate me and I'm just being rude as hell for not wanting to come. I'm sitting here like what the fuck is she talking about? She acting like she scheduled it, when I was just trying to find something to do since EVERYBODY said they just got off of work and was tired. 

That day I was so fed up I started to cry. I never really seen my family gang up on my mom for me but that was the first time I've seen it. My aunts started going after my mom because of what she said and my older brother told her to shut the fuck up. She didn't even want to celebrate my graduation but mad because I tried to make plans with people who did? Make it make sense? 

We didn't eat at Applebee's, and everyone left after that heated argument with my mom. My brother and my cousin Alayna ended up taking me an hour away to go see my boyfriend and his family at the graduation dinner. I met everyone even if my Makeup was messed up lol. My brother and my boyfriend got to meet each other for the first time, and it was extremely sweet. My brother really liked him, and even gave him his own nickname. 

Two days after that, it's the week of my birthday; My birthday and graduation day are very close to each other.

But apparently mom decided that was a day she wanted to argue. She said some really hurtful things, and tried to bring up my graduation again to tell me I was disrespectful. I literally wasn't though, when we really got down to it she was mad as hell. Saying things like, "When you had a seizure, who's name did you call?" and tried to kick me out. But started acting crazy when I took it seriously; while I was packing my bags she asked me if I needed bigger ones. Telling me that I could stay up in one my aunties houses because that's HER family. So I texted my boyfriend to come get me, and she turned my data off and unplugged the Wi-Fi to try to stop my connection. His father was coming to get me; so I just kept packing. 

It was literally a week until I get out of her hair, and I didn't feel like arguing with her anymore. So the more that I packed my things, I was on the phone with Ben and waited for his dad to come. My mom called me in the kitchen and asked me to sit down so we could talk, I told her I was finna go and we had nothing to talk about.

Then she ended up basically going into her life story and crying, saying how much she loves me and puts her life up for me or whatever and basically made it about herself. Like what the fuck are you crying for and you the one that kicked me out??

Anyways, I decided to stay and out of guilt she decided to take everyone out (including my boyfriend) to the mall. We both felt numb about it, it felt like an obligation more than a "sorry." 

The day of my birthday though, my friends and my boyfriend treats me to a birthday dinner. I had pho for the first time and it was amazing! I'd definitely try it again and again if I could. 

After all of that she had the nerve to try to find some kind of control everywhere else. She tried to control what college I go to by not offering any financial support. I guess that was her way of cutting off our relationship but it didn't work unfortunately. I saved up my money to go to Troy University and payed for everything by myself, I asked my deadbeat dad to help me pack my things and take me to the University. Last minute she caved in, trying to buy me everything. I got my own phone during the time, so she didn't have any access to my phone anymore. 

And here I am now! I'm currently 18 years old in college. My mom started sending crazy messages about how much she loves me and misses me. Just a couple of other things to skip by, but I cut off Amaya and Rhian because Amaya started dating my ex boyfriend when I started college, and Rhian knew. Then had the nerve to tell me that I'm not obligated to know after everything I've been through just to simply be there for her. I helped called her grandfather when her father was physically abusing her, when our band teacher was trying to molest her and when her mother died, but I'm not obligated?? Make that make sense. While this was happening, my ex girlfriend Jordyn and her girlfriend were threatening to shoot up my house. While another ex of mine named Mikell was trying to get into my Dms and tell me how much he want to be with me.

So though the fall and winter of 2025-2026 I had a lot of depressive episodes for the things I've been through. But through it all I met new friends named Daria , May and Christina! I've been trying my best to get through it all, I even had a counselor for the fall of 2025 because I couldn't deal with everything. My mom's still acting the same way she always does and I keep getting angry with myself because I feel like I haven't progressed. But it's hard, everything is hard; I'm still trying to figure out who I am all the time. But hopefully, it'll get better through time.

If you made it this far, thank you! and I love you all. If you have any questions lmk!