Him

To be honest I'm not thinking of him as much anymore, like i do feel nervous around him sometimes but other than that everything is going smoothly for all i know. I honestly see him as the most handsome guy ever. But yknow sometimes i think im unattractive since he's never looked in my direction once, I used to be ugly previously and no words of affirmation can change that or my feeling towards my appearance in the past, I mean most people say im beautiful nowadays but it just bursts my bubble to think he might find me ugly. Anyways I think everybody knows now since its obvious that people in my grade are talking bad about me and giving me dirty looks for a reason lol i dont really care though since everybody talks shit about everybody else