rosalie

3/2/2025

to the girl i’ll never have, just to throw it out there.

I don't quite imagine she’ll ever hear this for herself, but I'm just hopelessly infatuated with the person you are.

she’s like the sun rising after a night full of nightmares that you couldn’t escape.
the prettiest sunrise at dawn.
finally at peace. relieved.

she’s the most handsome person I've ever met. no guy could do better.

when I say my favorite color is blue, I mean her eyes.
gosh, have you seen them?
I'm too nervous to even look into them when we talk, but it’s not like I’ll ever forget them.

I’ve at least told ⅔ of my friends about it, and ⅓ of my friends are yours too.
I was so scared to have you find out because of them, but maybe all this time I was silently hoping you would, just so I wouldn't have to tell you myself one day.
not like I could ever have the courage to.

I’ve been devastated so many times in the past by you.
every time you had a new relationship, or crush, you’ve told me.
which is good. you trust me, but I’ll always hear everyone’s name but mine.
I can’t be upset with you over it, l feel like I’ve lost every time though.

I wouldn’t say I love you, because I ‘love’ everyone.
I’m not really a ‘feels’ person, I’d say I love you to anyone, because I do, really.
but I really can’t say the same for you. I’d need a different word, a special one.

I’m affectionate for you? I’m fond of you? I adore you? I’m.. devoted to you? I’m.. infatuated with you. yearning for you, perchance?

there are so many words, but I need time to find the right one.

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a poem i wrote once about a girl i liked. also for context she's a masc lesbian