sad life yap // 1st blog

i suck ass at blogging but ill give it a go i guess （-""-；) 

so i come from a heavily christian family and all, which in it of itself is stressful; adding the fact that im gay and neurodivergent and a helpol (meaning hellenic polytheist, i believe in the greek gods) just adds to the weight ://

its so fucking tiring having to act like i support my family and the way they do things (ex. voting orange man for USA's pres... dont even associate me with these people anymore cause what the hell..), especially having to constantly talk bad about things that i personally agree with, or even am (ex. lgbtq+) and it draims me.

honestlt i think the only thing keeping me sane is online friendd, music, and my hyperfixations, even though lately theyre been going wacko and now im hyperfixated on like 3 things at once and its weird lol

i really hope some day in the future ill be able to get out of here and live life like i want to (not to sound spoiled of course, but i kinda have been living with parents that might start hating me over one wrong move so i think its fair of me to want a break from it), and live in a place that doesnt make me feel trapped like i feel now.

well thats it i guess, not much else to say.

daily pronoun check: is there a pronoun for RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF SHE/HER AND THEY/THEM? cause i feel pretty smack-dab in the middle ಥ_ಥ anyway probably they/them like usual :]]

love you all, bye bye gumballs :D