HAPPY 4/20!!! 

Okay so I know that weed usage can be a controversial topic, but I personally don't think there needs to be a huge divide about it so if you're against it, feel free to pass and I'll see ya later

My relationship with weed

Anyway, I smoke a lot. I'd always thought that after some degree of time I'd get this strong sense of like, guilt or something since it had always been so drilled into me by my parents and church leaders that drugs n stuff was like instant hell (yikes 💔). Now here I am, more at peace with my life than ever. I was home schooled up until my freshman year and is the public school environment toxic hell? Absolutely. BUT!! I would never be as myself as I am now, nor would I have like, any friends or be exposed to the world and social environments. Good or bad is up to you, but if I had never been enrolled into public school, I never would even THOUGHT of trying marijuana.

I'm actually tweaking out tryna type this gimme a hot sec

Okay what's up chat so anyway, me and my best friend Rachel had to have been one soul split at birth because we've lived such similar lives, including our experiences with drugs. I don't really remember what put the thought in our heads, but some way or another we got curious and one of Rachel's now ex-friends happened to be a plug. After a little while, she set us up and it was at a sleepover I think that me and Rachel first tried it together. I distinctly remember that it was a pumpkin pie flavored cart with a little rocket on the front when you used it. It took me a minute to get high since I had a bit of a higher tolerance, but when that first sort of heavy calm haze hit, I think I switched dimensions for a second but in the most like "whoa dude this is pretty fire" kinda way.

Okay so I know this is gonna make me sound like a total addict, but omg right then was when my life changed, dude. From then on, me and Rachel smoked probably every time we saw each other lol Bless her heart because if I were her, I woulda been pissed off with my BS since I wasn't employed yet and couldn't buy my own stuff. Usually I'd never ask for anything, but she'd share with me anyway so shout out Rachel for being literally the coolest ever. Now I DO have my own stuff and I can return the favor 😋

But yeah, for me personally it's helped me more than it's hurt me for now lol There's nothing better than when it first starts to hit and you get that like, comfy heaviness over you UGHHHHHH I love it so much 💚 Sure, maybe I can go a little overboard sometimes, but honestly I don't think I care enough to worry that much about it, plus I have yet to green out so I think I'm doing alright 😌 I guess yeah, you could argue that it's self destructive but because there's a lot worse things I could be doing, I think I'm fine with where I'm at now. Besides, I love feeling like my room is floating in outer space idc I love being high

Why I smoke

Honestly, I don't really have any sort of like, reason for WHY I do it. I kinda just got curious and had some stuff stressing me out so I figured why not give it a shot since me and Rachel were talking about trying it anyway. I dunno, I guess since I've started I've just been happier. I haven't been nearly as stressed as I used to be, my what I think is OCD has been a lot easier to deal with, I've been able to express myself better, and surprisingly more productive (sometimes, I'm still a really lazy person lol).

I guess it's just been nice having something to have a sort of relief after everything, y'know? 

Dude, I was so dead set on waking up at a five like I usually do, and I did but I also took a hit right after I woke up and I shoulda known better because guess who fell back asleep 🥀 BUT I got up at six and I mean like, I wasn't planning on putting in that much effort into getting ready today 'cuz yk 😝 

I eventually pulled up in my kick ass Sublime pajama pants and found my bff Rachel in the school parking lot and almost immediately did we get insanely high. We lowk hotboxed her car so we had to kinda wait for the smoke to settle before we opened the door 'cuz the SRO (basically the school police officer) was nearby lol Idk how long it was before we went in, I think only like four or five, but oml we were losing it

Sadly me and Rachel had to part once we got inside since we don't have the same 1st period and I was officially on my own and madly bonkered off the yoinky which was already a lot as is, but in my 1st period I sit directly across from the guy I used to like and I've learned since liking him how weird of an individual he is and he's become somewhat of a comedy exhibit in my brain so I was hardcore struggling to keep it together.

By some miracle I managed to not like blow up or wtv in class but I was so insanely out of it during 2nd. We were supposed to be following along with an audio recording of a book, but I didn't realize I was supposed to, y'know, open the book until about 2 pages in 💀 I dunno if my teacher realized I was high but yk whatever lmao

As I type more about my day I'm realizing how little I remember 'cuz I was taking hits throughout the entirety of it 💔

Guys maybe the space grass is getting to me 😔🥀

ANYWAY, lunch came eventually and me, Rachel, and our other friend Rosie (who was also mad high) went to the gas station but OH MY DAYS THAT SODA WAS SO FUCKING GOOD I CAN'T EVEN BEGIN TO EXPLAIN IT.

Tbh I kinda blanked from there but oh well I probably had fun 😋

HIIIII DAHLIA FROM THE 21ST: I'm here to inform you that after I got home, I napped until 8 PM, hung out in my room until 10, hit a blinker, and fell asleep watching Ouran High School Host Club 😙

Conclusion

In conclusion, I love weed and it loves me too 💚🍃 Sorry this is getting out late, I actually like, died last night so I didn't end up completing in until tonight but it's okay 'cuz WE MADE IT YIPPEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!

Also a moment of silence for Leon Pennedy, who I took my last hit from mere hours ago, but I'm getting more shit tmrw so it'll be all good

On that note, smoke a shit ton if you're down with that. If not, enjoy life as a whole and have a good day or night. I, personally, am off to shower and go night night so ily all and peace out g scouts, buh-bye