My brain doesn't work

 All my friends are smarter than me and can focus so easily and understand everything while I'm stuck still trying to learn things I should've already learned or trying to remember what the teacher even said. Literally how can they tune in to everything the teacher says.. Like you mean to tell me you can actually focus and remember?? HOW???

 I actually cannot tune in to an entire lecture of words from a teacher for my life. I try to listen, but it's either my brain immediately shuts off after not understanding one thing they said or not being able to focus on both writing notes and listening to them talk. Like if they're explaining something and I'm actually starting to get it, then if I don't understand one thing they said then my brain just quits trying to learn it and I start daydreaming the entire time. And while I'm doing the assignment, I try to understand it based on the notes I took but if I don't understand ONE little detail then my brain gives up.

 I also have terrible memory. I forget everything that was explained if it's not written down. When I'm busy working on an assignment at home, I completely forget about the others because I'm busy doing that one. And mind you, the easiest assignment can take me HOURS to do while other people finish it in minutes. I procrastinate on assignments a lot too and have no sense of urgency unless it's really important and the deadline is coming. But even then, if it's really important and the deadline is about to come, my brain gets overwhelmed by the stress and completely shuts off so I can't even progress and then I completely miss my chance to finish it and ruin my life even more.

 Even as I'm typing this, I still have missing work to do. I'm never making it in life