My first ever real crush.

So in my freshman year of Highschool I became friends with a (maybe?) transmasc person, his name was Koto. I never really had a crush before especially on a boy (At the time I didn’t identify as non-binary) and I really wanted to maybe get closer. I was too scared to ask his number I don’t know why considering I liked talking to him and hearing about his favorite book about some snow white plot with a twist where her heart is replaced with a clock. But then Summer came and the next school year and we just drifted apart, I tried to make sure we stayed friends but it was just so awkward. And then some not so great people started hanging out with me I didn’t even like them, but I feel like maybe him seeing me with them made us further apart. And last thing I remember was seeing him at the end of the year and he was dressed as a shark for a school thing, I said hi and we had a small chat, I don’t really remember what it was about but I remember looking at his face the whole time. I miss him a lot. Maybe if I asked for his number things would’ve been different but I doubt it. Hope the best for you Koto if you ever see this!