It started well today...

Hey everyone, and welcome back to my blog! Today, I went to the hospital—not for anything bad though, just for an exam.

I really don’t like going to the hospital. It’s a stressful place because of the administration, the stressed patients, and the doctors. But the worst part is that the hospital in my city is really old and run-down. There’s even a part of the hospital that is closed because of asbestos (ᵕ • ᴗ •).

Anyway!

I woke up early to prepare my makeup and outfit ⋆˙⟡

I really like this style of makeup it make me feel so delicate and pretty ˚˖𓍢ִ໋❀

(plz ignore my hair, it did not cooperate)

It was a warm day, and it felt so good to walk to the hospital. My appointment went great—my body works well lol.

After that, I went to eat lunch at the uni with my boyfriend and his friends. I don’t really like doing that, honestly... I don’t like eating outside of my house because of my ED. I’m always scared of overeating. And my fear came true—I ate too much for my distorted mind lol.

I went home feeling fat, ugly, and disproportionate. I hate losing control. I hate ruining myself with food that I enjoy for less than a minute.

I spent the afternoon in my bathtub, washing myself. I waited for my boyfriend to come home so I could feel less alone and have a little comfort.

Sorry for the long text lol ⋆˙⟡

Please take care of yourself, bye bye!

Lilium