boredom

nothing feels like it can keep me occupied for very long anymore .

i feel so numb and devoid of emotion , despite being able to laugh and smile around others .

i know it wont last forever , but it still sucks feeling this way .

the only thing keeping me — entertained ?? ( for lack of a better word ,, ) — is drawing .

even when i dont have any ideas for what to draw . i just keep scribbling and scratching at the paper until i run out of lead .

i found a nice mechanical pencil on the floor at school , the color reminds me of griefer . it makes me happy . ( and yet i still cant draw him without thinking it looks like shit haha )

whatever , im sure this feeling will disappear eventually .