Report Blog Entry
This girl and I are very good friends (or we were, I don't really know)
We went through a lot of shit together, but over time, I think the relationship is deteriorating.
I send him messages and he doesn't answer me, or he answers me hours later. Last night, thinking, I came to the conclusion that she could use me as a means of escape, because both of us really got to be very bad, and she is improving, she is getting ahead, she is able to get out, but not me, I feel trapped in the traffic but my car doesn't move, the other cars move forward, but mine doesn't, not yet, and it's sad to see the other cars being able to move forward and continue driving, but not yours.
I know she had to get out of all this shit, and that's ok, she met new people, new friends, she may be living a life that she hasn't reached yet. I'm not saying that it's wrong that she made friends, but I felt a little "displaced", yesterday I saw a story that she had uploaded, it was about a conversation she had with another person, she looked so good, she looked happy.
I think the problem is me, I wouldn't mind if I had to leave her life for her to be fine, I really love her and I appreciate her, and if I hurt her, I'll gladly leave because I hate seeing her bad
We both did bad things to each other, we both hurt each other, but I want to talk to her, I wanted to tell her what's wrong with me, like we used to do.
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Esta chica y yo somos muy amigos (o eramos, no se)
pasamos por muchas cosas juntos, pero con el paso del tiempo, creo que se esta deteriorando la relación.
Le mando mensajes y no me responde, o me responde horas despues. Anoche, pensando, llegue a la conlusion de que capaz me usaba como medio de escape, por que realmente llegamos a estar muy mal ambos, y ella esta mejorando, ella esta saliendo adelante, esta pudiendo salir, pero no yo, me siento atrapado en el trafico, los demas autos avanzan, pero el mio no, aun no, y es triste ver a los demas autos poder avanzar y seguir conduciendo, pero no el tuyo.
Se que ella tenia que salir de toda esta mierda, y esta bien, ella conocio nueva gente, nuevos amigos, ella puede estar viviendo una vida a la cual todavia yo no llego. No digo que este mal que haya hecho amigos, pero me sient un poco "desplazado", ayer vi una historia que habia subido ella, era sobre una conversacion que tenia con otra persona, se veia tan bien, se veia feliz.
Creo que el problema soy yo, no me importaria si tuviera que irme de su vida para que ella este bien, realmente la quiero y la aprecio, y si le hago mal, me ire con gusto por que odio verla mal
Los dos nos hicimos cosas malas, los dos nos herimos, pero quiero hablar con ella, querio contarle lo que me pasa, como soliamos hacer.
Comments
Displaying 0 of 0 comments ( View all | Add Comment )