cats, cleaning, and new food! all the updates on my life since moving

Hellooo i have been doing very well since i turned down the job offer. my partner has been taking amazing care of me, and my nervous system seems to be returning back to normal very slowly. I'm stressed about welfare but like what can you do? it should be fine. my doctor has prescribed me anxiety medication that has been a lifesaver. I'm no longer having anxiety attacks every day! I'm so glad that a doctor finally helped me. and I'm so so so thankful for my wonderful partner of 5 years for encouraging me to take time off work and working for the both of us. they know the best how much trauma I've been through in the past year, and i am so privileged to be able to not work for a bit. 

I also got over one of my biggest fears this week. or like at least challenged it. if you didn't know, i am terrified of the dentist. i HATE getting my teeth scraped. i haven't been in two years because of this fear (also because i don't have coverage and it costs so much). The woman who cleaned my teeth was literally the friendliest and sweetest person i have ever met. i requested to have her as my regular cleaner. she was sooo gentle and used a special tool on my teeth instead of doing the scaping. good news is i have good genetics, so they said my teeth and gums are in perfect health!

I've been on an Asian diet kick for the past week, i am having a BLAST trying a million new foods that my partner and i get from the multifood market in the neighboring city. it is my favorite place on earth. every time we go my partner and i joke about scattering my ashes there when i die, i love it THAT much. all i do now is eat miso and rice and try new foods and veggies and fruits and candies and drinks!! i am trying a Chinese coco cola right now as i type this that is soooo tasty, its herbal and leaves this coolness in your throat as if you've had a mint. love!! 

in the past month I've read like 7 books, so I'm getting back into my routine and doing my 2026 reading challenge. i have 9/24 done if I'm not mistaken. I'm so proud. this includes getting back into the wings of fire series since i last stopped reading them at 16. ive just finished book 11 and 12, and now im onto 13. 

I've been cleaning every single day and it has been very good for me. I do SO much. I mop and vacuum and clean the bathroom and do the laundry and the dishes and the cooking and clean the litterbox and dust and wipe all the surfaces and clean the windows etc etc. It's literally my therapy and makes me so happy. I get moving and then the house smells and looks and feels amazing. and i am always so proud to show people my home and how pristine it is! i am in no way bragging, i know that so many people dont have the time or the resources or the energy to do this, and i am so grateful that i do have all these factors, because it helps my mental health extensively. 

my roomate has a cat and i have become a cat person! i used to be afraid of cats because i was bit when i was like 7 and then i was just kind of jumpy and unsure around them. i am IN LOVE with this cat. he's all white and his name is Bitsy, hes three! he's very shy, it took him a month for him to let me pet him, but now i get to give him scritches every day!!! hes the best boy. plus i didnt realize just how much easier it is to take care of cats than dogs. although i LOVE dogs and will get one in the distant future, a cat is great for me because it gives me more wiggle room in my schedule. 

So yeah I just wanted to update you all! I've been doing better slowly and I'm very happy where I'm living <3