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id really like to know if anyone else went or is going through this. i've been "bullied" my whole childhood for my looks, so i find myself really ugly to the point im embarrassed to exist and going out because the thought of others perceiving me bothers me so much. so id always wear some revealing clothes (not too much) and try wearing makeup to feel better about myself.
the thing is, i've been facing the fact that i might be transgender (ftm) recently, so i'm really stuck between my 2 options:
being disphoric and not so ugly
being ugly and not so disphoric
and i really don't know what to do 😭 i feel like i'd suffer either way idk im really hoping it's a phase or smth lol
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Been there, done that. Personally I prefer to dress less pretty and being comfortable. I still do dress pretty every now and then, but it's definitely not something I want to do full time because in my case it makes me dysphoric when paired with my other features.
Makeup can actually help you when it comes to looking masculine, so I wouldn't ditch it completely if it makes you feel better. I think I pass pretty well, and I wear makeup every day. This usually works if it's natural, or the opposite - obviously artistic (for example tradgoth). There are plenty of tutorials on how to use make up to look more masculine online, if that's your thing.
If revealing clothing makes you feel dysphoric, maybe you could try looking through different styles? Dressing nice doesn't confine itself to having your belly out and men's fashion is actually pretty flexible if you take a better look. Maybe you look better in certain colours? How about layers and textures, or patterns? Do you prefer streetwear? Smart-casual? Did a certain subculture catch your eye? Something more theatrical?
Not everything will work, that's the harsh reality, but there's a lot that can be explored.
thank you so much ! i do have some masculine clothes so i've been using them way more recently. i feel really bad because since ive been using more feminine clothes some of my friends are starting to use she/her only when referring to me (i know its kinda my fault but theyve always used he him) so like..yeah
ill try to use masculine makeup too! the only problem is ill be constantly insecure about my looks lol, maybe ill try to balance it
thank you so much once again !!
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