Spring diaries

This is just a digital diary (Maybe life updates) so if u're uninterested please ignore the post :D

Today's 12th of april 2026 (sunday), so there's approximately 75 days left of school, i pass my regional exam on 24th-25th, thinking about how slowly time consumes us never fails to fascinate me everytime, I might never admit but I love going to school bcs there I get to meet my friends, ppl around my age who understand me, make me laugh and accompany me through boring classes, it's specifically during this period of time where the class reaches flow state where everyone gets along with everyone, I talk to lots of my classmates, but I usually stick to my friends I, M and sometimes B during recess or lunch, in class however I speak to B, the guy in front of my desk Y and my hb A, abt pretty much everything, our lives, our love interests, soccer, music and our pasts.

I keep trying to make myself busy these days to avoid being THIS chronically online (+12 hour screentime daily) and wasting my time on meaningless scrolling, so far I've done this over the weekend! I watched a movie (the perks of being a wallflower) and started the series A recommended to me (bloodhound) im on ep 2, I went skating on friday and saturday with my hg H from another school, reconnected with 2 old friends, cleaned my room and baked smth sweet for the first time in a while.

After busying myself over this weekend, I started feeling less empty and my life started feeling meaningful, I feel like I'm starting to live my teenage life to the fullest extent whenever I do smth risky on a hangout, I also mentionned skateboarding, I haven't skated in over 2 years so when my hg said lets go it felt like a fresh start, I had to adapt again, I realized I lost so many skills, I can't do an ollie, I can't zig-zag anymore and I can't do a flip trick too but I'll learn again ^^

I also am slowly pulling away from the academic stress bcs I js tell myself everything will work out, I'm a straight A student, and all my life I've been worrying about placing 2nd instead of first, this year the pressure was worse bcs I've been focused on being top again, and I've been top last year and the first semester of this year, all this to try out my luck and see if I might get accepted in a prestigious high school across the country for the sake of a fresh start away from my hometown :)

I love going out to the scent of the spring breeze, it smells like a strangely pleasing mix of jasmin, peach blossom and roses, the jasmin and peach blossoms mostly come from our front yard but I love going to the park to smell more jasmin and roses, there's smth abt it that alives me, this might sound corny but I GENUINELY feel like some shoujo girl or protagonist walking around flowers. Also I love the smell of the salt air my city's developping, I'm actually starting to be grateful for living in a coastal city, Idk wether to consider this place a town or city, its not as big and developped as a city but wayy more developped than a town, it's got coastal side, rural side, downtown and central place, I live on the coastal side, the beach is like a 10 minute ride from my house but so is downtown, I go to neither bcs it's embarassing to go by yourself sometimes since its filled with families, couples and friends.

Btw this was all for today, lmk if theres anything I could do, and ty if u've made it this far in !! <33