Scary future

Im 17 and I'm so freaking afraid of my future but at the same time so chill about it, ts is confusing. I don't want to go to college or uni after graduating school because i don't think im going to make it there due to my mental issues and shit. I want to make living with my art but my skill is not high enough for this to be easy to me and i live in a country where people don't like art that much to spend money on (and also a lot of people struggling with money situation here) it's just make my future life harder to be nice. Idk what i want to say here......... I try to be as positive as possible, but sometimes that dark shit is just eating me alive. 

Who wants to be friends just add me! Sorry if i said something wrong, i mostly learned english from tik toks and movies ^=^