read or dont i feel sad

i will miss the feeling of bring needed, i had this ex. i wont be saying his name because which i dont know if he is on here or not. we had so much in common. we would call everyday, when he came home after school. he had shown me how it feels to be loved. i cant help but think of everything we did. we would play games together, we had genuine laughs together. but now its gone. i fear ive been having dreams of him, and not gonna lie. i doubt he ever thinks about me now, hes dated so many people after we broke up. we had this shared playlist, but now he has one with a another. i sound weird for saying and like i dont know. but i cant keep this to myself anymore, its been on my mind since november something. when i slept during the day, he would stay up until i woke up. and when i woke up, we would spend time together. we slept on call more than i can count. i told him everything, i trusted him with everything. and now that might have been bad, i dont know he says bad about me and uses the stuff ive told him about myself. he gave me good pets in this stupid pokemon game. im still greatful for it. we had the same favorite color. pokemon game, interests. everything. when i do talk to him. i always spill stuff out like for once. we called ONCE after everything happened and i quote "yeah uh.. i was thinking about u a few days ago. wondering if i should ask how u were doing but i didnt know if that would be weird" gosh i feel so stupid about that, i felt like i meant something when i talked to him. and now we dont talk as much i feel empty, in a way. hes the only person i cant get over. i feel so bad, and not to mention. i had a ex that was the same as him. i havent talked to him since june or may 2025. i feel awful writing this but i realllyyy needed to get this off my chest.