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Hey folks!
It's been forever since I've written a new post on here. There's been a pretty good reason for that. I took a total nosedive in terms of depression which was absolutely brutal. I've only managed to actually start getting a handle on it in the past week. I did spend some time writing in my physical diary as I thought that it was better suited to unpacking the specifics of what has been going on.
However, I've started new medication now as I had been off meds for the past couple of years. It seems to be working really quickly which is nice. I'm not super overjoyed but they're definitely taking the weight off. I've also got some stuff to help me concentrate a bit better so I'm trying that out today to see if I can clean up my house after this particularly bad episode.
I've been given a pass to take a break from my research which is helpful. Although, I plan to try and work lightly on it with less immediate pressure to see if I can get it done. I really hope that I can keep some kind of momentum with my research and also get back to eating properly because I miss proper home-cooked meals.
Also, I've been seeing a lot more of my friends which has been quite comforting. It's been really hard to see people when we're all so busy with our lives but I think we need to start spending more time together without it having to be an event. The more casual, low-effort time we spend together, the less it will feel like a chore to see people. It's kind of upsetting how socialising has become such a slog for people, even though we enjoy it once we get ourselves in motion. I hope we manage to do better at seeing each other. The world is so shitty and difficult to navigate as it is, we may as well foster a sense of community to stave off the loneliness. I don't want to be perpetually jaded anymore; I want to find a sense of wonder again.
I hope you are all doing well and taking care of yourselves.
Kisses,
Luke
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Bi ᝰ.ᐟ
hey!! glad to see you back on my blog section again lol :) glad things are evening out for you, i hope that everything gets better too. i've found an unhealthy habit for ordering in recently cus it's becoming slightly harder to cook...we shall persevere together! always nice reading :)
thank you so much! also GOD i feel you on the ordering in. they'd need to pry kfc out of my cold dead hands when shit hits the fan in my life. it's the only reason i had a couple of warm meals last week. we had oven dinner tonight which is a step up and watched part of Fire Walk With Me which was really nice. also managed a food shop + got new bedding so i'm a happy fella. hope you're winning!
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