to Lucy

Ain't no one missing you. Whoever looks at you, they can only think about how pathetic your life is. I hate seeing these, seeing you like this, whatever you're doing... Because, at some point, you were my best friend. You still are, just not of the current version of me. Your past-self was my past-selves best friend.

I hate seeing you like this but it all starts with you. If you're not willing to change and become a better version of yourself, no one can help you. You gotta put your sh!t together, man. You probably won't read this but I still wanted it to come out of my chest, it's been a burden, a heavy one. 

I wouldn't want to lose you, but you did this.