7:

I hate everyone who's left me so much. I hate everyone that I don't know and I don't know what to do to stop that
I don't want to make connections with people if they're just going to leave anyway
they don't know me
I'm always angry and scared all the time and I fucking hate it
nothing feels genuine and real but when it does its so overwhelming and it shouldn't be that way

realizing that I'm alive, with everyone else and this is the world that we live in, I cant do it
I don't want to exist to anyone else