My life is getting out of hands lol

It's been a while like always. My life is actively changing from month to month which is I suppose normal but it's always and EXTREME CHANGE for me because I always make spontaneous decisions. SOOOO I wanted to really get into BDSM since I've been interested for YEARS, and I went fuck it let's do it and made and account on a dating site. DON'T JUDGE ME it's hard to connect to people in a society where most people get offended when you try to start a random conversation with them because they want peace and quiet lol. I made my account and was flooded with massages. Important note it's a BDSM DATING APP not a regular one, so after an hour I already had 12 DMs so I knew I could just pick the attractive ones out HEHEHE. I found this dude, met up with him for a one night stand, he wanted to get PEGGED I PEGGED HIM, we had sex I was the Dom the dynamic was amazing and it was an life altering experience. I had a huge ego boost for a few days no regrets it was really good sex. Would do it again next time with a own strap on tho. It gave me my first real experience and taught me what I like and what not. I literally nearly came from him just sucking on my tits like omg did not expect THAT. The next guy was not a good experience. We tried having car sex but it didn't work. I learned my lesson of don't tell an inexperienced top that the can be rough on you, because he was so rough that I was green and blue everywhere. He hurt my boobs so bad lord and riding dick is a workout. I also turned 19, but the thing with the dude I pegged happened a few days before I turned 19 lol. I didn't celebrate my birthday this year it was the least celebrated birthday ever. My parents didn't even sing happy birthday for me only one of my gay friends sang for me!!! Which I didn't expect happing but it made me really happy. I also went to a Vkei karaoke night with my friends, organized by a friend too lol. I got fucked up drunk sang Tanbi kei bangers kissed an OPP talked things out with them and then no more opp lol. I had a lot of fun lost my phone, got it back at the vkei meet up the next day and everyone knew that I was fucked up drunk at the Vkei karaoke. Even the over 30 year old gyas knew of it LMAO, but whatever. I had fun, took many pictures with my digi cam and I was polite. I luckily always ask when I wanna kiss someone.