I decided to be an asshole today..

I've been pissed at how shitty this year has been for me personally. Without going into details, my dad is extremely sick and for the first few days he was at the hospital he was knocking on deaths door(he's doing much better now thankfully). 

Worrying about that on top of everything that's been happening this year has made me so pissed off at everything to the point that today I just snapped and had ended up taking my anger out on a GRID 2 online session with one of my friend groups. Ramming & blocking anyone who got too close and pretty much just ruining the fun of what was supposed to be a fun and clean a race session that was planned months in advance. I don't have anything against them, it wasn't personal. In the moment, I just couldn't think of any other way to blow off some steam so I resorted to violence. I'm fully aware I was in the wrong and I wouldn't be surprised if some of them lost respect for me after that. 

I genuinely feel like a piece of shit for doing that and now I'm gonna be scared to interact with them in the future cuz now I'm gonna be paranoid, thinking that some of them won't be able to move on from this and are gonna hold a grudge and try to humiliate me in some way. FUCKING HELL, I HATE THIS FUCKING YEAR MAN. (╥﹏╥)