what do you think life is?

Hey! me again, I know no one will probably see this but you know as always, I'm gonna talk about it anyways. What is life? or at least, what do You and I think it is? like I'll be honest with you. I'm not gonna lie and say I've always wanted to be alive. that I've always been content in my own skin. cause if I did, I'd be lying too you. I have hated myself before. I have wished, PRAYED I could be someone else, ANYONE else but me. and I know what its like to feel like your standing on the other side of the fence, watching your life pass you by. and people you love outgrowing you and yea it hurts. makes you feel like you'll be on the other side of the fence for forever. but I just want too ask you, me. why? why is life so important? why isn't it? why do these things flood my mind late at night? and too that I say, I don't know. I just know its valuable. I feel like, us as humans weren't put on earth for a soul purpose yk? like not in a dark depressed way I just feel like we aren't here for any particular reason. like if we make purposes for ourselves that's great! but it's not required. I never felt like I was purposeful. and that's why I was sad, till I opened my eyes one day and realized , that was my purpose. to just be. it doesn't matter what you'll be doing it the future or what you wont, as long as your LIVING. and that's what I think the meaning of life is. living. figuring yourself out. some want to do some extraordinary, b outside the box and some want to stay inside the box. and both are okay as long as you enjoy it. as long as it brings you joy. just because you aren't  the next Elon musk doesn't mean your not winning in life. winning to me is simply just breathing air and enjoying it. so the meaning of life? I don't fckin know. and that's okay. :) that's all I had to say. later gators