drunk

tw// s@, drugz, 3d

so im banned from drinking (not really but im deffo taking a break) basically i fucking blacked out again the last thing i remember is watching tiktoks and apparently my bf said i tried giving him head and we were fucking for a bit and he used one of my toys on me and apparently i (you guessed it) fucking pissed on him omg guys like when i tell u im so fucking embarrassed and then i started crying and wouldn't stop this seems to be a common thing i do and idk why i was thinking maybe because earlier in the day i was making a joke with my bf about my assaulter and maybe i had a flashback idk but i woke up naked and fucking pissed AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. my bf has been mentioning doing shrooms on christmas (it's a little tradition he has) and i lowkey think im gonna do them with him cuz clearly there's some sort of trauma buried deep inside of me or something cuz every time i get blackout my bf says all i do is cry and cry, last time i got drunk with my bf and my friend i apparently wouldn't stop crying about my friend who passed away and it's like crying all the time is so embarrassing ૮◞ ‸ ◟ ა but yeah idk i was gonna starve today as punishment but idk im craving a subway sandwich.

kie OUT! (╥﹏╥)